here i go again
28 July 1990
nanyang poly; health sciences
im fine, how are you?
another summer day
做朋友可以非常容易，也可以非常的困难。朋友为什么不能互相信任？
朋友,您为什么没有安全感? 为什么必需如此认出我们的缺点?
朋友...
chulee, thanks for always thinking of me and asking how i am. although i haven seen u for like 1 year, you're still the best of my best friends. haha. i love to read into ur life and love to see ur blog. do you know? u are my star. i appreciate stars all because of you. whenever i look at the star, i see you. whenever i look at the star, i know u will see me. haha. im glad to know u, really so blessed. i remembered during camp at sss, we sat at the playground and u carried me on ur back. you told me ur secret and i told u mine. do u still remember? haha.. i felt so blessed because i can be ur best friend too(: i am so looking forward to next thursday!!!!! :D
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in the beginning.. HAHA!!)
zhishan, you are so tall, i am so short. u are so thin, i am not thin. you got long hair and i dun have. you are mature and im so childlike. you grow up in the east and i grow up in the west (though it's still s'pore) HAHA! anw what i meant is, we are so different.. but i guess we can understand each others well(: i still remember vividly how i got to know u too. lol. we hanged out tgt everyday, going to the same canteen everyday(: many a times, i find it awkard cause we always need to dig out topics to talk. but as time passes by, we got to know each others so much deeper and im loving it! haha(: once i dislike poly life too, because i thought everyone was selfish and ''action''. lol. but you were different. you showed me how u care and ur smile is always genuine(: i still rememberedhow u took care of me when im not feeling well, your funny and sweet smses, the reminder of this and that, supplying tissue everyday. hahaha! THANKS dear, you are so appreciated((: tell you what,you are one with a big big heart for people. and.. now i love the road to south canteen, talking naturally, i simply just love to see you and yuna everyday. haha! (:
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haha yay(: and i really felt so good about the chat on tuesday.. thanks dear!(:
hello blog, tmr's the 2nd week of school. it's school again!
The end is such a scary place to start.
Everything is torn apart.
And I don’t know where to go from here.
In the end, there’s no reason to pretend,
I know you won’t be back again.
And I gotta find a way from here
I don’t know where I’ll fall down,
But I’m sure to hit the ground.
Cause it’s not over ‘till it’s over,
Every ending’s a new beginning,
One more chance to get it right,
One more chance to get it wrong.
And it’s not over ‘till it’s over,
Sometimes nowhere leads to somewhere,
And it all starts again in the end.
And it’s such a scary place to be.
Everything is in between.
I don’t know where to go from here.
In the end,
I see it’s all up to me
To figure out where I should be.
I’m gonna find a way from here.
I don’t know where I’ll fall down,
But I’m sure to hit the ground.
Ya it all starts again,
It all starts again in the end.
But it’s such a scary place to start.
Everything is torn apart.
And I don’t know where to go from here...
hello chuu! today's my 2nd day of school and im really sleepy, but im glad to have good classmates. haha i kinda look forward to your birthday! really miss you a lot, didnt see you for a long long time already. but i also know why i cant meet you. haha. nvm it's okey! im glad you still update your blog and share with me your life! hope you're doing well and stable. jiayou!
on the other hand, 4 more days and is A's birthday. i think A has forgotten me already. i dunno why but A didnt do anything to upset me. but just because A did nothing, im so upset, bitter and hurt. A was my best friend, but A forgot my birthday, which it means so much to me for A to remember, cause A is so close. A knows i left but did nothing to bring me back, i know i shouldnt blame A, my expectations failed me. A didnt contact me for near to 7 mths already. i am sad and i dunno if i should be angry. now even if A talks to me, i doubt i would be able to reply.
on that same day one year ago, i hurt B. B was the only one who showed me that B is sincere enough to remember and care that day. but i treated B's care as rubbish and stupid, even ganging up with A to get rid of you. if only i can be a better friend to B now, but we seem so distant now, i know B is afraid of me even after i apologise, im sorry.. really sorry. and thank you for ur love and care. i appreciate it.
im the most stubborn sinner on earth, im so so sure. because i gave up 8years of joy heartlessly even after witnessing so much. what cause me to give up? seriously, i dunno. i think i am too selfish. but now, i dun feel like going back too. im filled with guilt and hurts, i dunno why. i've abandon my life and i seem to not care about it anymore. 'to hell be my soul' seemed to b the best statement i'm living now. im utterly amazed by my stubborness, my firm-ness, my heck-care and bitter soul, spirit.. i dunno how to carry on from here and i cant move. butmy main problem is, i dun want to go back and i dun want to accept help. i cant seem to roll this stone away.
anyway, takecare(:
been thinking -thought im kinda ready to blog again! (:
so here i go again! (:and flat